EWhorism part 2 & my fat ass?

So, I knew coming from my first blog that I would stir up a lot of drama, or people saying "omg its that one ***** yatta yatta". I don't really care. I wanted to share my personal journey through WoW with some of you because it is important to me to finally just let it all go I guess. So, where did we leave off. Oh, my college time. I was very young when I graduated high school since I was home schooled 10th-12th grade. I usually spent all day flying through my schoolwork just so I could get done. Plus, I lived on the side of a mountain and there was this super cool waterfall up a trail, so I would go do my homework there on a nice day(taking my can of Bear Spray with me of course!).

Anyways, I broke up with my boyfriend about 3 months before I moved to college in Florida. This gave me some time to get a little extra money together, as well as just take a break from the relationship business. I mostly spent my days on the computer and working out(when i was still super skinny, a lot more skinny than those pics I posted). I played a game called Knight Online under the name Kirshka. I am sure people have heard of that character name before. Well, I met some good online friends on Knight Online, and we started live chatting with each other on MSN. They told me I should get a webcam too. So, I eventually did. I was still 16 at this time. I don't know what possessed me to do it, but people told me I "looked hot" at the time and so I started to be "bad" on the webcam.

I eventually then took a naked photo of myself. I sent it to a lot of people. Then the Malaysian version of Knight Online was closing. I had to find a new game, so I started playing Warcraft 3, since I was bored of Diablo2. I met some pretty cool people on the game, and eventually got introduced to some of the top War3 players such as Grubby, Sonkie, Qazzi, Pato, holy human etc. I also lived in Florida at the time, and a lot of famous Warcraft 3 people were from there. I got to goto Bush Gardens with some of them. I never got to meet Cecil or Nueby.GGL, but we have a rain check. For now they would just leave me gay messages on my cell phone.

So the announcement of World of Warcraft was all the ruckus on warcraft 3 with the advertisements and stuff. It was what all the kids were gunna play from war 3. I was actually doing really well in college (4.0) and I had pre ordered the game, but decided to not pick it up since it would get in the way with my studies. A friend kept persuading me to try the game out, so he let me use his acct. I originally played an Undead mage on the server Spinebreaker. Her name was Kirshka, and I originally just had fun leveling up and doing small 5 mans. I then started inspecting people and saw they had purple level items. They said they had gotten them from Onyxia or Molten Core. I then tried to find a "raiding" guild. I eventually found one, and on my first Molten Core raid got a few Arcanist pieces.

Raiding gave me a whole new perspective on the game. I was with 39 other people trying to accomplish something. I remember the first time we downed Ragnaros. It was a great sense of joy so to speak.  I then started to have a little " thing" with my guild leader. This was  a total mistake. I had sent him those "bad photos" and everything. We had talked very hot and heavy with each other. But at the same time I liked someone else on the server who actually lived close by. Me and that person met up and I actually had sex with him. What a ***** thing to do. My father was probably rolling in his grave. To make things more awkward, my guild leader told me he wanted to fly out and meet me. I had also told him I gained a little weight, but he said he didn't care.

So, he flew out to see me, and I told him what I had done. He was really mad, but shrugged it off I guess. So, we get to my parents house, and my parents aren't home because they are on some business ordeal. Within five minutes of getting to my house he keeps pressuring me to have sex with him. Im like, NO, I don't want to do that. I know a lot of it was my fault because we had talked about sexual stuff etc. He was dissapointed that I wouldn't sleep with him, but he wanted me to go see where he lived. He even paid for my college transfer to finish out my schooling where he lived. What I didn't know was how big of a douche bag he was really going to be. By the way, my paren'ts absolutely loved him. He made himself sound like the perfect guy.

So, a few weeks go by and I get my plane ticket to go fly out and see the school out in Colorado. He picks me up at the airport and acts all happy to see me, saying stuff like "Oh, babe I am so glad you are here I missed you already". We get to his apartment, which was a pretty long drive and decide to call it a night. The next day he is at work all day, so I cleaned his **** hole of an apartment because I was bored. Man, the filth he was living in was disgusting. Beard hairs all over the bathroom. Soap scum and black **** all over the tub. Crumbs and God knows what else was in the floor and counters of the kitchen. But thanks to the Roacherz Touch, it sparkled and shined. I even scrubbed the damn carpets because it was that gross.

So anyways, a few days go by, and he keeps putting off taking me to the college to go see it. I  still won't sleep with him, but he forces me to sleep in his bed with him, when I just wanted to sleep on the couch. All he would do when he came home from work is play WoW and lead his raids. I did have a back up plan when I visited him. My mom's friends sister lived out there. During one of his raids I just left his house. She came and picked me up. God bless her. She took me around to see the school and showed me a good time. My guild leader then had his friend, who his friend came to visit me and was a total dick head to me while he was at work, he had his friend call me frantically all paniced seeing if i was"safe" and blah blah. Whatever I just hung up the phone.

Finally, the day arrived for me to go back home to Michigan. The lady's husband had to goto the airport the same day as me, so she took me extra early. I got to the airport around 2pm, my flight was to leave at 7. So I had a few hours to sit in the airport, how fun. Then the flight got delayed 2 hours. Then they boarded the passengers, we sat on the plane for over an hour, then the flight was cancelled. They said our luggage would be on one of the conveyers below. I wait, wait some more. Everyone gets their bags but me. My bags never came. All of my stuff were in my bags. I wasn't 21 at the time either, so I couldn't rent a hotel, and all of them were" booked" apparently. So, it was like 1am at this time. Nobody was answering the phone. They couldn't get me on another flight for a few days either. I was like , sweet. So, I hitch hiked to the nearest hotel, which I had my grandma use her credit card to rent me a room.

I arrive at the hotel which was like 35 mins away, and the lady said she thought my grandma was with me, and she refused to let me have a room. So, I finally got a hold of one person and they came to get me. I went to the airport the next day thank God and went home. What a nightmare. My bags got lost, but someoen from lost and found brought them to my house eventually. Anyways, I went underground in WoW for awhile. I met some guys from Death and Taxes, and eventually helped level one of their characters in Burning Crusade. I helped level many of their characters actually. I don't know why they really trusted me, but they did. Then the cat came out of the bag that I was a "*****" and this and that, and My picture got posted on some huge thread on their website. It had to be taken down due to the underage photo of me. That was really embarassing let me tell you.

If i could take anything I did back I would. Anyways, I started a brand new WoW account, snagged some gear, but of course some people found out it was me eventually. I cannot stress enough how much I love end game raiding. I transferred to one guild, and they gkicked me in a few days because of my "past history" and they didn't want an E ***** in their guild. I have to say I was pretty hurt. All I did was want to raid and be left alone to be honest. Finally I found a guild who gave me a chance. It is funny because the same guild that kicked me out , had many of these same people in it. They actually apologized to me, or one of them, the main culprit of the bunch did, and I respect him for that. Things were great in this guild. I was in it a whole year, until it broke up. I then joined Forgotten Heros down the road, but they went horde so now it is time for a break.

But to any of you that have any "Teriala" stories, you can tell them, I don't really care. Half of them are probably dramatized to all hell, or not even true at all. I would really like to thank the people that have apologized to me, or looked past the drama. Thank you very much. And I am sorry if I ever did something to hurt anyones feelings, that was not my intentions. My experience in WoW has been one roller coaster that is for sure. As one saying goes, Once a cheater always a cheater, I do not think that is true. Same goes for once a ***** always a *****. Some people can change, but this is the internet so nobody really cares.

Just remember, to you same people that are calling me *****, how I helped some of your guild mates out by paying for their WoW accts some months, by logging on their chars to raid, by farming Twilight Texts til they were coming out of my ears just so you could get your Black Battle Beetle bug mount. Or the countless days I stayed up just to help your main tank of your guild level, and various other characters.

I really am not that bad of a person, but I guess I am just a fat ***** who should go kill herself. And **** proof reading who needs it.

All I can say is , if you are a woman and you play online games, be careful. Don't give pictures out, hell dont even talk at all. Or if you do, make sure you have a boyfriend or a husband!